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2010-08-26T21:30:00.000-07:00

FINALLY !!!

only left wif lit and a maths. bt, it's only e end of mock exam lo... haiz. still gt o levels.
don tink tis mock test will be btr than prelims. cuz i still don noe hw to do and nt confident at all.
im goin to buck up manz...

am at yan ying's hse bloggin. cuz will be goin hougang mall tgth later!!! EXCITED!!
it's a reward for workin hard. bt actually i oso nv reali work hard lo.. cuz was sick for e first few days and all i care abt was slpin and nt doin my revision. :(

goin 4 tuition aft tat then back to sku for focus!! and im goin to get my koi!!! woohoo~ :)

hope tat everyday will be a good day!! :)

2010-08-23T02:10:00.000-07:00

a lot of things happened bt i jus cant find time to blog.

bt, i wanna take tis time to thank my 3 DEAR frenz who nv give up on me. thx for always being thr for me and not let wat others say abt me affect u guys' opinion. mayb u guys may not be able to feel it. bt i wanna let u all noe tat U GUYS ARE REALLY IMPT IN MY LIFE!!! :) if not for ur presence and encouragement, i will not have been able to hang on for so loonnngg!!!!

I LUVVV U GUYS LOADS!!!

my dear yan ying!!!

i noe u will be able to read tis or may hav been waitin for this.

i really am very very very grateful to u. u play a really impt role in my life and u let me noe e feelin tat wat's it's like to have ppl caring for u. sometimes, u even noe me btr than i noe myself. thx for makin e effort to wake me up and thx for always bein thr for me. be it lendin me a listenin ear or be it lendin me ur shoulders. i'm goin to miss times where we can take bus bac tgth, crappin tgth, jokin tgth, laughin tgth. havin tuition tgth.

times spent wif u will always be in my memories!! and i hope tat its in yours too.

ps. tell me straight abt anything frm now on alrites.

off to mug now.

2010-08-12T05:18:00.000-07:00

lots of things ar goin thru my mind rite now...

ar u guys like hiding sth frm me??

i feel so isolated and...

cant describe.

pls pls pls jus let it be tat im thinkin too much. pls.

i've had enuf of a life worrying abt this kind of things.

can u guys jus tell me wat u truly feel??

2010-07-22T02:02:00.000-07:00

afternoon studies are comin next week. wth. so rush.

i'm goin to suffer cuz i'm goin to miss my bed. really hope tat i won't be wasting my time by goin for e study.

wat's more, no more time to use com. sianz...

tmr is e last afternoon tat i'm goin to have tat's free. i swear man. i'm NOT goin to touch books. cuz i wanna cherish my free afternoon.

why is it tat whn we are goin to lose somethin do we realise e importance and goodness of it?? haiz.

i am so goin to miss e food outside, my afternoon naps, MY CUPWALKER!!!

oh ya and lunch.

and aft afternoon study most of e time need to rush for tuition. :( i hate tis life.

2010-07-15T01:45:00.000-07:00

my e and a maths paper 2 results came back today.

seriously, it was damn depressing!!! :(

scoring 10/ 80 for a maths paper1 doesn't seem like i hav tuition lessons. paper2 was no btr. 26/100. wth is tis?? wtf is wrong?? i really HATE MYSELF.

i am sorry. really sorry. esp to mr ng, ms lee, my mum and my aunt.

i expected to fail. and i knew tat it's goin to be damn damn low. bt whn i saw e no 10, i couldn't stop my tears frm rolling dwn. i couldn't control myself frm cryin. i noe i hav only myself to blame. bt i am sorry to disappoint u guys.

e maths i got 42/100. jus by abit. due to all e cryin durin a maths, i was alrd immune. bt, i couldn't control my tears whn i saw ms lee cryin. i noe she gave it her all. bt we didn't.

bt, since it's over, no use moppin over it now. jus hope tat this is really a wake up call for everyone. e next mock paper will be a better 1!!!

I MUST WORK REAL HARD FOR IT!!! so s not to disappoint anymore. so GAMBATE PEEPS!!!

2010-07-13T05:09:00.000-07:00

jus received a DAMN BAD news jus now. he's back.

wth. why must u come and disrupt our life now??

u noe jus how much i HATE u??

u were e 1 tat landed in debts and caused our house to hav paint spilled all over it.

u were oso e 1 tat caused us to be locked in our own hse.

u jus SUX!!!

it's wasting oxygen keeping u on earth.

and wat u treat our hse s ??hotel? hospital? shelter?

come s u wish and disappear s u wish.

pls la. 4 god's sake spare a thought 4 others.

life wif u in e hse is gonna be so weird. so can u pls do wat i always do? jus leave e house. bt this once, DON COME BACK!!!

u make me think twice abt goin hm now. u totally jus sux. my family's mood ruined cuz of u. IRRITATING!!!

u btr don do ath to irritate me tmr whn im goin to c u. cuz, i am now a grown up girl and not like b4. whr i can jus c wat's happening bt cant do ath to help. it's goin to be different nw. i am goin to stand up 4 my family and not let u ruin our life!!!

2010-07-04T23:57:00.000-07:00

abt 10 more hrs later and i will be officially 16...

1 yr older... haiz...

was very excited abt my bdae at first... bt s e time draws closer, i'm actually fearing it coming so soon. cuz 10 hrs later, im no longer e young gal tat i used to be.. bt an adult.. my thinkings hav to be more matured and really need to grow up.

and i jus feel so sian.. don reali feel lyk celebrating... serious. i don noe y frm over enthu abt my bdae to don feel lyk celebrating.. don noe hw my thinkings change so drastically...

forget it i shld be happy.

so i shall do a count dwn starting frm nw..

celebrating with besties tmr. mayb will be at seoul garden. had a hard time deciding steamboat or seoul garden... ha has...

will post my celebration... ha has.

2010-06-20T23:38:00.000-07:00

woohoo!!!

i FINALLY found e time to blog!! seriously. this hols shldnt hav been considered hols. cuz i don even have e time to relax. wth. it's either consultations, tuition etc.

time reali flies!! i haven started revising 4 any prelims. argh!! omg...

anyways, time 4 e HAPPY thing:

last tue, my BESTIES had a surprise bdae celebration 4 me!!

they jus appeared at my tuition place wif a cake, a board and presents!!

omg.. i was so surprised and touched tat i cried..

they gotme my FAVOURITE, a crystal ball and a figurine wif my photo. the figurine gt big boobs and perfect figure!!

if i cn, i will load e pics.. bt high possibility wunt... hahas.

to the boys in table cloth sku :

if hav e guts to scold her on facebook, then y don u hav e guts to tell her straight??!!

don be a coward man,,,

and put urself in her shoes. how would u feel if tis kind of things happen to u?? take a good look at urself in e mirror b4 u all make comments. assholes. cowards.

2010-05-02T22:47:00.000-07:00

friday was jus an UNLUCKY day for some e4s.

we were scolded by tck. cuz he was very f up abt we not cooperating to go for e cip on sat. all thx to tanner who went to complain and gt us into trouble...

he shouted at emi and xp in e canteen. he even called me in e canteen to scold me...

i broke dwn... cuz i was reali stress up... i didnt noe wat to do... jus feel tat im very incapable and i got e rest into trouble... wasnt feelin veri gd.

however, aft e scoldin, tiff ng, yy, rach and me went to sticky. i felt reali btr aft lookin at e sweets. hahas...

:) it was thx t0 their encouragement and jokes tat reali made me feel btr...

and 30th april was e day whr my wallet reali went bust. hahas. dey told me tat it was a gd thig though.. if nt i will reali buy until crazy... went to bk to eat and do my hw... really enjoyed e time tat was spent wif them!! THANKS!!

went bac to sku for band concert.

btw, i wanna thank xp,ian,emi , ced, wei sin, peiyi, jun heng chartoh and jx. thx guys for cancelling ur plans to come dwn for e cip. i really appreciate it. and it's u guys tat made e cip a success!!

on sat, alth e grp was nt big, we were still able to complete our tasks. went to kovan to jalan jalan wif emi. we oso talked abt alot of things!! he he. =) love her...

goin to rush my piano hw nw. byes!

2010-04-28T01:35:00.000-07:00

hi...
been quite moody these few days. as alot of things are jus happenin.

seriously, did God giv human beings a mouth to gossip??
nobody is perfect. so why shld we always c e imperfections? cant we notice more abt their good points? everybody hav their good and bad pts. so can we jus accept ppl for who dey are?
somemore. if thr's really a need to say, then say it straight in their face.

jn. heard frm alot of ppl tat u hav been talking abt me. pls la. if u hav e guts to say then jus say it straight in my face. stop ruinin my reputation and be such a hypocrite. if u wana use this method to lett ppl trust u then u are wrong. cuz i belive one day tat they'll c ur true colours.

sorry for startin on such a sad note.

btw went to pool , eat and buy clothes on sat aft cip. it was so fun!! and im like addicted to pool. suppose to go agn tis sat. but wanling cabt make it. but she promise us tat thr'll sure be pool, prawning and steamboat nxt time. ha has. :)

i am at yy's hse bloggin nw. and she's complainin abt e way i use e key board and she even complain about my POOR english !!!!!!!! hahas. jk jk. :) rockin.

bhb serena. tis is 4 u. i lov serena. lols...

2010-03-30T23:08:00.000-07:00

HEY YO!!!
i am now at sku com lab 4 and sitting beside e girl who calls herself cute

2010-03-29T02:11:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!
i don noe wth is happening to me. but i jus cant seem to finish all my homework always recently. it's like thr's jus sooo mucch to be done and i jus cant find e time to do it. seriously, now i truelt understand why ppl say 24 hrs a day is not enough... cuz it's e truth. one day to me is like half a day. tat's how fast time is passing by.

jus finished e cip proposal ytd at 12 plus mn. luckily miss lee told me tat it was well done. if not, i would have killed myself. hahas.

jus last week, my ' wonderful ' history test is bein published. and i promised myself tat i will not cry. and indeed i didnt! what doesn't break u make u stronger!!! hahas. this statement has been proven to be rite. i am emerging braver and braver each day... woo hoo!!!

oh ya... will be gettin my baby mp3 player frm rachael tmr!!! i am so excited!! finally one thin for me to be happy and excited abt!!! yipee!!! i noe i alrd hav a mp3. bt, i hav been listening to e same songs for like 2 yrs. it's pretty boring. and e songs i hear i will be feelin like i jus heard it. cuz i am so familiar with e songs le...

haiz. anyways, tat's all for today. i am goin for my battle wif e hwmk!!! OMG!!! STRESS AND BOREDOM. still got alot of cl spelling correctins to be completed. hoo...

gtg. c ya soon! hehe. :)

20th march 2010... a day i'll NV forget =)

2010-03-22T02:30:00.000-07:00

HIEE!!!
he he. am so high for the past 2 days... cuz... wat i wanted so damn long has FINALLY happened... all thx to my DEAREST poh im, who made it possible... =) poh told me that aft i received his 1st sms, my face was real damn red. even mr ng oso saw... so embarassed. bt i was really over the moon when i saw his msg...

alth we are only msging nw, it's alrd enuf for me and i shall now let nature takes it's course. =) i'm holding on to every hope possible... i will promise to wait patiently for the day to cum and i strongly believe that i can giv u wat she can give u.

but, i'm glad enuf tat we are frens. even if thr's no future for us, i will still remember u always. =)

i will love and cherish u and nt let history repeats agn =)

gota get bac to my lit work le. goin for tuition soon!!! can c him agn. WOOHOO!!!

anyways was looking at lady gaga's videos. she's actually quite pretty. but why must her dressing and dance be so disgusting? and some of her make up are jus so thick that she covers her true self. so don out up too much make up kays...
hahas... u wont look natural... and it's FAKE!!!

byes!

2010-03-19T03:41:00.000-07:00

the last lib camp by current excos...
went for cip on tues with ange etc. and aft tat went to meet jun wei and vinni to buy lib stuffs.
it was fun! then we headed back to sku to do some plannin.
cant get everythin done and so ange and i decided to meet to go back to sku. vinni cant join us as she has cip.
for e 2 days tat we go bac, we were nt in proper attire. we were in home clothes! and e guard saw us bt didnt even stop us. he he.

anyways, todae is e last day of camp. alot of things to improve on. like plannin more activities cuz we jus hav too much time left. however, this time e bbq was a SUCCESS!!!
and last nite wedid nt slp. bt, i slept for 2 hrs plus. cuz woke up at 2 plus on thur to pack my bag.

it was really tough on e others esp e excos who was runnin wif the juniors. U GUYS ROX!!!
vinni and ange u guys worked hard too!!! esp vinni. who is really under ALOT of stress...

anyways, learnt alot frm this camp. i'm reali tired so i shall stop here.

it's IMPOSSIBLE to be flawless and consistent...

2010-03-15T01:10:00.000-07:00

yo...
went bac to sku tdae 4 oral exam. i woe up only at 7!!! i was damn late. so i rushed and decided to cab thr. i waited for like 20 mins for e cab lo... wth.. i was really afraid and panic. called poh im for cab no. i called and waited. bt c no cab. i saw a cab and jus board. heck care my on call cab. who ask him to go to e wrong place.

reached and realised tat u cn even take ur exams if u're late. so wat's e pt of me rushin? lol...
was e first girl tdae. 1st time in my whole life! so aft tat went canteen. wanted to do hw. bt saw tiff ng and we started gossiping wif belle and wyndee.

went study area nxt. then was crapin wif joc, ange, rach , tiff. tdae is e first time i'm waitin for my frens. uually is dey wait for me de lo...

cl oral jus sux. i was at e lost at wat to say.. and i paused for really long. shit. don noe wat my results will be like... waited for yy to cum dwn. chat wif ange , cl and rach. me and yy pei rach until 1 plus for yang zheng. wei da rite?? hahas... :) i learnt alot abt life and frens while talkin to rach. so e wait was quite worthwhile.

gona get bac to hw then go for tuition. byes. =)

life is short...

2010-03-11T03:02:00.000-08:00

haiz... life is jus so short... so my promise to myself is STOP HAVIN REGRETS AND CHERISH EVERYTHING...
things changes and tat's part of life....

im alone at home nw as mum went to talk things out wif e girl's side parents. yup. those who read my blog and understandit would noe who im talking abt. i hope tat aft tis meetin, everything will go on smoothly till forever...

thrs alot of worries in my heart tat i dare nt tell any1... eg, will they last? etc...
am i thinkin too much? shld i rest my case and let nature tkes it course?
im really sick and tired of eveythin... jus hope tat it will end soon...
hopin 4 e best now...

sorry ppl for makin my recent blog posts so emo... i will try to stop everythin. bt at least giv me till 10 april... when everythin is settled... and hope tat u guys will try and make me laugh so tat i will be able to feel btr... thx...

mar hols is comin. bt im still s busy. wif camps, tuitions, homeworks, oral etc. bt i still hope tat i will hav time to relax and go out wif beloveds...

goin bac to complete my hwmk. byes...

TAGS REPLIES...
ANGE: thx so much!!! will tell u wad happen exactly whn i hav e time. :)
yup. and i will continue workin hard!
cant help bt I LOVE U SO MUUCCH!!!

yy : THX SO MUCH... i will let my tears fall whn thrs a need to...
LOVES!!!

things ar nv perfect...

2010-03-05T00:32:00.000-08:00

things ar nv perfect... cuz e more perfect things are, the more imperfect othrs seems...
in e blink of an eye, Adam khoo's workshop ended...
it's jus so much fun! how i wish it will NOT end...

anyways, my results for this common tests SUX!!!
those tat i pass are not even well done... and i failed my english...
it's seriously time to wake up!!! I HAVE TO DO EVEN BETTER for my march/ april test aft e march hols...

and it's 26 more days to 10april... even e date is set... so thr's nth i can do to change e outcome...
so mabe shld heed e advice of my gan ma. which is to give them my blessings.
i wish them a blissful life and must stay tgth FOREVER!!! love each other always... i hope i can bring myself to accept ur marriage... all e best to ur future!!!
didn't xpect e 1st marriage in my family would be so sudden and unwanted... bt thr's nth i can do le...

it's level cip tmr!!! so excited abt it!!! woo h0oo!!! hope tat i will enjoy it and everything will turn out smoothly... =)

2010-03-01T02:36:00.000-08:00

haiz...
things are jus nt goin on smoothly...
day by dayjus pass wif more and more problems addin on...
my bro, my studies... it jus piles up...
it's too much for me to endure le...
can someone jus help me out?
i'm afraid of seeing e sun rise up cus i'm very afraid of facing e new problems tat is goin to pop out...
i may look happy or is laughing away... but do u guys really noe tat i am suffering really badly?
i HATE being another person...

2010-02-26T02:42:00.000-08:00

OH YES! TODAY IS E LAST DAY OF COMMON TESTS!
finally i can slp peacefully now and hav more time to relax. tis week was like shit cuz it's tests and tests all e way. and it's been 1 week since i really slp. gona catch up on my slp today. hahas.
however, tmr still gt tuition and family gathering. so cant slp much. bt at least can still enjoy myself.

time pass so fast. sun is e last day of new year. cant believe tat i wasted my time to study durin new year. lol.

anyways, todae e cip leaders had to giv out flyers. e4's place is at seletar. which is very very far away frm sch. thank god we have mr tan who is so nice to send us there. if nt we would actuaal be lost. cus me, jocelyn , jun heng and ms lee didnt noe how to read maps. hahas. mr tan drop us at every different street then we went down to put e flyers in e mail box. bt... flyers was nt enuf. so we went bac to sch to print agn.

me, cl and jocelyn was walkin and M caught me wif sweet drink. he said i was drinkin when i wasnt even. wth. still nid to c him on mon. asshole.

anyways, e of us cabbed thr. jh was unable to join us due to his cca. we had fun. cuz we were like walkin, joking and crapping. we even ate ice cream. it was so shiock!!!

thr's really lots of dogs thr. so beware. they ar reli fierce and their barks is jus so scary!!
we actually took a van "food frm e heart van" to get out. decided to walk yo sch bt it was drizzling. so took a cab instead.

mr tan was reali worried abt us and kept askn for our well being. i almost died today. cuz when i saw e dog i jus ran without watchin out for cars... was told off by mr tan...

miss lee and mr tan jus rox!!!

2010-02-13T18:40:00.000-08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!!
not forgetting...

HAPPY VALENTINES!!! MAY ALL COUPLE BE BLESSED!

2010-01-18T01:22:00.000-08:00

HIEE!!!
haven been postin for damn damn long le... cos relly very busy now... it's hwmk and more hwmk everyday...
it's only the third week of sku and i can really feel e stress le...

at e samn time, i wana to enjoy life spent with 4 express4 now... cos it's gona end soon... and we'll all be goin our own way le... gona miss e times...

thr's really not much free time left for me. cos nw even sat i'm havin tuition... hope tat at e end of e day, all e hard work put in will be paid off...

lessons nowadays is quite ok la. cos for el thr's mr muru who's joking wif us all day long... thr's 1 joke tat i will mot forget. he said tat his children is zebra cos his wife is a chinese but he's indian. hahas... :)

other lessons will be spent wif jocelyn craping. especially durin bio. we can always find ways to entertain ourselves. he he. history lessons will be filled wif fun with my laughter, jocelyn's jokes, serena's blurness and yan ying tryin so hard to get serena on track. it's reali damn funny listening to serena talkin.

learnt R- formula for a maths today. serena was asking yy why do we need to find r when it's not even stated in e question. we told her tat it's part of e formula. but she still kept asking why. it's really damn funny... :)

later will be goin out wif poh im for dinner. cant wait manz.

got to go now. cuz i need to try to complete my chem hw and history b4 dinner and tuition. hope to be able to blog soon! :)
don miss me. hehe... bhb...

2009-12-12T04:58:00.000-08:00

went to marina barage wif yan ying and jasmine ytd... it was full of fun!!!

2009-11-19T19:26:00.000-08:00

HI!!!
feeling damn damn moody now... i really very sick of staying at hm... its jus so irritating...
jus why is my family so diff frm the others?! why?!
others hav a caring family who cares for them. me? who cn i turn to for advice? nb give a damn abt wat's going on in my life. all my mom care abt is all those useless stuffs. aft a day at sku, all i wan is some1 who cares. it's not like i don hav enuf troubles. so can u stop adding ur troubles to mine?
i'm really sick and tired of all these!!!

why izit tat others get on so well wif their siblings? y their care so much abt them? y their can understand them? y can't mine be the same? others can confide in their siblings. bt i cant... others hav siblings who dotes on them.

if a bed and a room is causing so much troubles, then i would rather i was not born, thr's no bed, thr's no room. i don mind slping even on the roads if my family could be as happy and bonded as the others.

can some1 be kind enuf to lend me ur ears?would some1 be kind enuf to shower me wif care and concern? and make me feel tat i am not redundant? make me feel tat i belong?

TAGS REPLY...
yan ying: hey yo. miss u too... hope to c u soon... and hav an outing soon... hehe...

2009-11-16T04:32:00.000-08:00

HI!!!
woke up todae and didnt do any work cos gt no mood todae. hehe. keep looking at the clock to c whn's 12 o clock s i'm too excited to go to fernvale pri for lunch. their food thr is so so damn nice!
and cheap!

everytime whn we ar suppose to go to fernvale pri, i will always be very jin zhang lo... and will be like so ks... cos wana reach thr to c wat thing at the bookshop thr is cute... and wat special food they hav...

suppose to meet jocelyn on 163, bt she couldnt make it. so i went dwn to wait for her at the bus stop. thot tat 854 wunt stop at tat stop, i walked up to the nxt bus stop. in the end, 854 did stop thr! waitting thr was quite tough s it was very eerie... s it's all trees and thr's alot of wierd noises... oso cos part of me wanted to go to fernvale faster... hahas...

couldnt stop talking to jocelyn. hahas... we ate tom yam soup and sushi tadae. it's nice! and aft vinni and angeline reach, i couldnt stop being crazy... we were busy laughing! :) hahas...

joked tat hong wei was a couple wif ct's partner... hahas... bused back wif vinni and ange...
going to hav some outing wif ange and maybe the others... oh yes! i finally cn go out!
vinni reminded me tat it's gona be 6 more days to her bdae...

tmr is the last session of kidz read... sort of will miss the times... haiz...
hope tat all those who ar going to take their test tmr will do well... those who put in effort will surely be able to do it de... :)

byes...

2009-11-14T21:53:00.000-08:00

OMG! OMG!
I cant belivve it! i almost finished the tys 4 e maths ytd! and the matrices work is almost done. so 4 maths, i'm left wif only a maths to clear now. oh yes!
so actually it's possible to finish all the hw de!

sis coming back tdae. so todae is my last day playing facebook. haiz.
went tpy central to but mac for dinner ytd... alth i stay near thr, i actually took 1 hr. s the bus was too cram... ppl jus keep getting on bt no one gets off... irritating...

going grandma's later. so byes..

2009-11-13T21:16:00.000-08:00

WOO HOO!!!
didn't complete much hw ytd. s i was busy talking, playing and eating...
ganma bought alot of nice food back ytd... was damn bloated! had my FAVOURATE oyster ommelate for supper. am damn contented. bt if i continue lyk tat, i tink i'm gona be so fat aft sku re opens. hahas...

gona try and make up for the work tat i didn't complete ytd. if not, i tink i wunt be able to complete everything...
bt, cant bring myself to log out of facebook now... so hw am i going to work?

k. decided. i'm gona log out now.
haiz. byes

2009-11-12T20:41:00.000-08:00

HIII!!!
completed sum work ytd. hope tat i will be able to complete wat i hav to todae.
am currently playing cafe world now... going t rivervale later to find mom and decided to do my work thr then.

sis coming back frm tai wan on sunday. haiz. hen i gt no excuse to use com 4 games le... sian...
bt tink by then oso gt no more time for games le...

haiz... goin out le... byes... :)

2009-11-11T17:34:00.000-08:00

hoo...
it's FINALLY holidays!!! feel wierd as going to school has become a habit. and the headstart wasn't as bad as i had thought. in fact, it was ok...

haiz... thr's tons of hw to be completed. and thr's only 41 days left! OMG... doubting tat i will be able to complete everything. bt, i will still try...

feel tat tis hols thr's no time to relax. cos it's hw hw hw and tuition tuition tuition!
haiz. i will pyscho myself tat it's fun! hahas...

still hav to study for a a maths test! sian...
fine. going back to work now. hahas. byes.

2009-10-12T21:08:00.000-07:00

WOOOHOOO!!!!
todae to me is like the last day of exams... cos wunt be able to study for tmr's paper. still feel tat it's so dumb. y can't we finish both papers today so tat we dunt nid to go back tml. haiz. waste time.

peeps! we've all work hard! so now we deserve our rest!
" resting allow us to go further." hahas...
bt guys, we've omly completed lyk half of our journey only. cos we still got our o levels nxt yr. so, rest while we still can and nt forgetting to study.

PSLE officially ending todae for my bro. hope tat he can do well and go to the sku tat he wants!
am alone at hm nw and am abit bored... prepared my own waffle lunch today. hahas. it taste so gd... lol...

SOME WORDS TO SOME PPL...
yan ying (crab): thx 4 ur help and encouragement all these while. indeed u hav help me alot! printing papers 4 me, teaching me stuffs tat i dunt noe and most of all is ur words and encouragements tat kept me going... lk forward to our outing... LOVES... :)
serena: hey girl! thx 4 ur jokes and rubbish tat mke me laugh lyk crazy. u ar really full of rubbish. hahas, bt i jus wana tell u tat u hav been a GREAT fren. always listening to my troubles and mking me laugh whn i'm sad. u rox! (s if...) lk forward to our outing. LOVES...
chartoh: hey yo! thx 4 all ur rubbish bhb -ness tat make my day! u ar really funny bt u ar nt msn. hahas... thx alot for ur encouragement to kip goin on and not surrender to maths. u succeeded! keep on rocking and speak more rubbish. hahas. LOVES...
jasmine(prawny): hey prawn. stop calling me monkey. and thx for ur encouragement too and ur jokes. oh ya! and ur nonsense. hahas. kip on trying ur best and u will succeed! LOVES...
TAGS REPLIES...
ANGE! update le la! hahas. miss my laughter ma? hahas. continue to miss me and my laughter k? wish u pass ur exams wif flying ... colours! luvs...
jocelyn! thx 4 ur compliments! hahas... continue staying cheerful and CRAZY! hahas. ALL THE BEST 4 UR RESULTS! i noe u cn do it! luvs...
yo vinni! hi! stay funny always k? hahas. oso, ALL THE BEST FOR UR RESULTS! U WILL SURELY SUCCEED!
TO THE REST!
ALL THE BEST! HOPE TO C ALL SMILES WHN U GUYS COLLECT UR RESULTS! GO!GO!GO! :)

2009-09-10T01:32:00.000-07:00

whew...
FINALLY i can concentrate on my hw le... and gt 1 more thing off y mind le...
i feel more relaxed le...
todae's piano xam was MUCH btr thn last time...
the examiner was lyk more friendly thn tat bitch.
this time, really hope tat i cn pass.. dunt wana disappoint belinda my mums etc...
oso dunt wana waste all our efforts.

IT'S U GUYS TAT MKE ME GOING!!!:)
thnx ppl for nt giving up on me...

nt forgetting...
thnx to all my beloveds for cheering me on!!!
(u all shld noe who u ar...)

i did mke mistakes la... i played arpeggios whn i was supposed tp play scales... hehe...
and sum mistakes here and thr...
and i didnt noe tat i hav to register... thnx to an auntie tat reminded me...
reali hope tat everyting goes well...

nw, hope tat everybody can do well in tmr's oral!!! GO PEEPS!!!

2009-07-08T01:03:00.000-07:00

heyyyyo!!!! woohooo....

am back bloggin whn i am 15 yrs old... hahas.... get wat i mean? my bdae jus pass la... hahas...

this yr's bdae is quite ok la... lucky gt serena pei me... actually gt a surprise de... bt at the last moment, everybody gt sth on... sian... bt really thnx to serena for acc_ing me alth she's unwell... LOVE HER LYK HELL!!!

chartoh oso damn cute la... she bought a cake 4 me and left it at my hse doorstep. hahas... am so touched...

CHARTOH! IAM JUS GG TO SAY TIS 4 ONCE. I LOVE U LYK HOW BIG THE WORLD IS. (if u fail to read tis, then too bad 4 u.

yan ying and jasmine oso gave me my present at tuition. THANKS DEARIES!!! LOVE U GUYS LYK HEAVEN!!!

failed to lk at shawn ... miss him lyk shit lo... hahas...

alth, there's some disappointments, bt tis day is still considered ok la... ALL THNX TO SERENA!!!!

heys girls who failed to show up on 6july, u guys owe me sth. make sure u all pay back ho!!!

chartoh! STOP FEELIN GUILTY LA. IT'S NT UR FAULT. at least u sacrificed ur fish soup and brought a cake to my hse.haha...

LOVE YOU GUYS FOREVER!!!!

2009-06-04T04:08:00.000-07:00

HI!
hehe. finally back. had not been blogging for so long.
life is really stressful and busy now. these 4 days doesn't feel like hols to me. had been gg back to sku since mon to plan for the upcoming lib camp. it will be real fun man. too bad for those who ar nt gg to turn up. hope tat all things will be able to go on well and smoothly. so tat vinni, angeline and my effort will not be wasted.

gt to go nw. byes.:)

2008-08-31T03:50:00.000-07:00

HI!!!!
am back FINALLY!!! miss me??? hahas...
anyways, was really busy and lazy to blog... sooo much has happened all these while... don hav the time to type everything down... so let's jus forget the past and face the present!;)

log on to friendster today and saw a message... if only i had seen the message earlier, alot of things wouldn't hav happened... hope tat is thr to tell me tat it's all a dream and is thr to comfort me now... too bad... thr's no1...

went to visit hayden, jx, xf, and xin gan's blog... am quite surprised tat hayden and j linked me... hahas... sorry tat i didn't link u guys back... cos i don noe how to... ps... will ask xingan to help me link.... :)

quite bored tis few days cos yan ying bao bei went 4 camp ... so these few days didn't chat on the phone tis much... used to her calls tat now am not used to it when thr's no calls frm her...

anyways, time to go off... will update when i hav the time again...

TAGS REPLIES!!!

pk: c... green again... i so good rite... tat time is coincidence tat i used green... i'll try to update once a week frm now, bt no promise... since it's so expensive then don go so often lo... hahas,...
you oso don get so stressed up k... jia yous... i'm always behind u!!! :)

rachael :will ask jocelyn tp help me link u up... ILY!!! :)

JX: don keep changing link le la... later ppl don wana link u le... hahas... jkjk... will ask jocelyn to help me link u up... it's really funny sitting wif u... and sorry for making u paiseh tat time...

2008-07-07T04:10:00.000-07:00

yoz!!!! am back FINALLY!!! waited so long 4 the chance to use the com...
anyways, let me tell u wat happened the last few days... bear wif me k?

4 th july ( a PLEASANT SURPRISE!!!)
GUESS WAT? my gans gave me a surprise today... bt the stupid thing is, i didn't sense anything wrong even aft much clues were given... yan ying bao bei told me not to buy cake cos she gt odac aft tat and the she will vomit...
in the end, she herself bought a cake for me... even xin gan and lei si bian were in cahoots wif her...
during recess , bao bei and xin gan told me tat they needed to c mr chng aft sku for the c.i.p thingy... the fact is, the went to get the cake frm mr chng aft sku... can't believe tat even mr chng helped them too...
bao bei actually wanted yvonne, jasmine lao po and sheena sun nu to lure me away aft sku... bt, in the end, i went wif sun nu to detention room since she needed to report... bt she found no1... on our way down, we met mr chng and he pulled sun nu a... so, i went on my own to meet up wif the others. bt i only saw yvonne thr... so i asked her whr the others were, she told me they went to look 4 sb... so we went to buy drinks 1st...
then, aft we came back, sun nu was back thr... then, xin gan called my name and when i looked back, there was bao bei holding the cake...
i am jus so damn damn shock and touched till i cried... bt, no1 saw tat cos i stop soon... we sang the bdae song and thr was alot of backgroung music... hahas... couldn't light the candle. so xin gan told me to fake blowing it... hahas...
we cut the cake and guess wat, sun nu came up wif the plan of playing wif the cream... so my face was so oily aft tat...
noe wat yvonne told me? she said tis is her 1st time telling so many lies... when she only told 2... 1 abt the present and 1 abt they looking 4 sb... can tell tat she's such a honest girl...
THANK YOU PPL 4 GIVING ME SUCH A WONDERFUL SURPRISE!!!! I'LL NVR EVER FORGET IT!!! LOVE U GUYS LOTS!!! <3
5th july( sentosa outing)
woke up at 5sth... cos mom said i needed to finish up my work... bt, i was too busy lookin 4 the 2 charmaines... so didn't complete much work... hahas...
met yvonne on the bus at 11 plus... then met up wif xin fei at compass ... went vivo 4 lunch... had a HARD time looking 4 long john... even harder wif our rumbling stomachs...
signed up 4 a package which included 4D magix, merlion, luge+skyride,fort siloso,tiger tower...
went merlion 1st and we were each given a lucky coin... xf made us laugh so much using the coin... went luge next and then tiger tower... went coffee beans for coffee b4 4D ... spent 5.80 for a stupid drink... couldn't finish so i put it in yvonne's bag... went 4 4D next... there's 2 rounds of waiting... we waited long bt it was worth it... cos it's such fun... me and xf screamed sooo much... i love the part whr they sprayed water at us the most and hated the part whr we were soo close to the bats...
went siloso bt found out tat the sun rise tat i hav placed in yvonne's bag spilled... we had a HARD time clearing everything... even then, everything still smell... am so guilty... decide to buy her a new bag... xf scared us during the walk tru a tunnel... she saw a man and shouted... so poor yvonne and me... we screamed wif her... bt it was nth...
yvonne called her mom to tell her tat she won't be able to get back in time... while she's on the phone, xf and i went in to a air conditioned room... she scared us by coming in crying... we were told to leave s thr's only a last tram ... on the way back, it was quiet s yvonne was worried abt wat was gg to happen when she reach hm...
saw sheena at the mrt platform at vivo... she came lookin 4 us and we chatted 4 a while... then she went back to join her frens... xf, yvonne and me saw a disgusting scene tat i don wish to elaborate... reached compass and took a taxi hm wif yvonne...
THANK YOU GUYS FOR SPENDING WIF ME A WONDERFUL DAY!!! it was really fun even though thr was only the 3 of us... I LOVE U GUYS FOREVER!!!!

will continue cos i'm tired le... hahas... will oso reply tags tmr... 'yawn'...

2008-07-03T05:21:00.000-07:00

HI!!!

first time ever since i created tis blog tat i everyday oso post k... feel so proud of myself... hahas... i tink i deserve a pat on my shoulder rite? hehe...

anyways... sth embarassing bt funny thing happened today during wushu... we were trying to do a stunt ... i tried bt can't get it and am too lazy to try again... so, i decided to jus squat... maybe i did it in a hurry ba... guess wat? my shorts split... so damn bloody embarrassing lo... wanted to go wif xingan to G.O. bt teacher don allow... so in the end, i went wif sheena... she was laughing and telling me tat it's ok at the same time...
the G.O. was only left wif one pair at tat time... so i'm still considered lucky... went back to jointhe class aft i changed... ppl were laughing at me lo... it was jus so damn embarrassing tat i cried lo... regretted laughing at leisibian tat time when her shorts split... so wat's the moral of the story?
don laugh at other ppl...

btw, i wana to thank the ppl who hav encouraged me and told me tat it was ok... it really helped me alot... THANK YOU!!!! :)

TAGS REPLIES!!!!

XINFEI LEISIBIAN: k... i trust u tat u'll make it a good day... and i'll surely enjoy myself wif u all ard... and i'm looking forward to it...
i finally understood wat yvonne was trying to say. jasmine hope tat i'll post abt the celebration on sat. then yvonne said tat since she'll be gg too, thus she can enjoy the whole thing and don need to read my post to c wat happened... since she's oso not interested to read... bt she's only jk... so now u get it?

YAN YING: K K... not ur fault... not ur fault... it's his fault k? hahas... hey btw, stop ass-ing me la... u wan **** then meet me at a hotel la... hahas... jus jk...

YVONNE AND JASMINNE: since it's an honour, then u must tag more k? hahas... i'll try to post more... i'll post abt sat de... don need to jealous abt yvonne de...

YVONNE:ya... ya... it's good tat u can go... bt don make ppl jealous ma... how dare u say u ar not interested in reading my post? let me tink of how i can punish u... hahas...

2 more days to sentosa celebration wif my gans!!!!
3 more days to my bdae!!!!

2008-07-01T22:07:00.000-07:00

3 more days to sat!!! 4 more days to my bdae!!! :) hahas i'm counting down... now am at sku de com lab blogging... nothing to blog le la... jus wana to do a count down... lols... looking forward to sat... :)

2008-07-01T07:19:00.000-07:00

FINALLY!!!! 3 more days to celebration at sentosa with my gans and 4 more days to my bdae!!!
lei si bian told me tat she'll make it enjoyable 4 me... i'm so excited abt wat she's gg to do... hahas... with her ard nothing will be boring... leisibian make sure u keep ur promise ho...

yan ying make me cry by letting me read the letter tat she wrote... i understand her feelings s i've oso been tru it... really hope tat she's ok le...

tis 2 days we're discussing abt wat to do on sat... am quite done wif it le... thanks to leisibian and yvonne... yan ying told us to stop it and don make her jealous cos she won't be able to join us on sat... hahas... during read period, leisibian make us laugh REAL hard until i choke on water... make my throat so pain... to make things worse, yvonne spilled water all over the floor and my table...

lessons ar nvr boring s long s the 4 of us ar sitting tgth... we'll make jokes and laugh at jus ANYTHING...

shld end here le ba... will get back REAL soon... :)

2008-06-30T03:41:00.000-07:00

YOZ!!!
am back... me and him ended on 23... feel so relaxed aft it... shld hav jus done it earlier... hahas... xin gan and i thought tat although he's irritating, bt aft i end everything i'll be free... bt, we're wrong... he still wana to attract our attention... he oso told xin gan tat if he find out tat our break up gt anything to do wif her, she'll get it... wth... y can't he jus realise tat he's the cause of everything? i'm so sorry xin gan tat i dragged u in...

anyways, enuf abt him... 6 more days to my bdae... bt don noe y tis year am not abit excited abt it... although we ar celebrating on sat, we've not thought of wat to do yet... don feel lyk celebrating anymore... any 1 gt any idea on how to celebrate? i'm really running out of ideas...

TAGS REPLIES!!!!
lei si bian: sorry for the late reply... i love u too!!!
yan ying: will link u up tmr. :)
li min: will oso link u up tmr!!! ILY too!!!
pk: not feeling quite good recently... k... will share my troubles wif u... don regret and say me irritating ho... hahas...
u wana noe y the trip is not fun rite? cos grace tan went on the same trip s me and alot of things happened...

2008-06-19T08:31:00.000-07:00

HIIE!!!

am back... bt too busy to blog... hahas... anyways, the trip was not fun.... as alot of things happened... haven gt the pics ready yet... so will post it next time i blog s well s the info...

still haven do the hols hw... and sku starting soon...

gt to go... longer post next time...

byes

2008-06-02T23:13:00.000-07:00

HI PEEPS!
am back blogging... did blog a few times b4 bt couldn't publish the post... don noe wat's wrong...
anyways, xin gan help me to change my blogskin... nicer rite? fei hua... my previous blogskin was so damn bloody untidy... bt now nicer le la... thanks to xin gan...
I LOVE MY XIN GAN AND IT'S A FOREVER AND EVER THING!!! :) hahas...

28 may 2008 and 29 may 2008
bus-ed alone to sku on both days... bt met bao bei at the bus stop on the 2nd day... went back 4 maths extra lesson ... so damn stupid...luckily, gt bao bei pei me if not won't be fun le... we chatted abt jus anything and everything... (like A,M,P) and she told me a damn surprising news tat i an't disclose...
on tues wanted to bus home wif pei yi bt in the end, she told us tat she wana walk home... bao bei and i look at each other startled... since nb bus-ed hm wif me, i decided to take a taxi hm. saw pei yi on the way and she was really walking... hahas...
went wif bao bei on wed to compass. we went pop then went walking ard... bus-ed hm wif her aft tat...

30 may 2008
met up wif albinia at hougang mall... went to the library to borrow books... went for lunch aft tat and since she need to rush back to sku, went hm aft tat...

31 may 2008
went downtown east wif fel, terence and suz to watch narnia... wth... so damn bloody nice lo... don mind watching it again...

2 june 2008
shld be gg out wif yan ying, bao bei , jasmine and pk... bt in the end couldn't go... haiz... went for piano class at 3 sth... bus-ed alone again... bt tis time xin gan was on the phone wif me... thought tat nb was at hm so stood outside chatting wif xin gan and waited for ard 15 mins... then xin gan told me to try pressing the bell... guess wat? my gan ma opened the door for me... i was so damn pai seh lo...
stayed up until 2 sth reading... damn guai rite? hahas... sent lei si bian her bday msg at 1200...

3 june 2008 (today)
went to my aunt's hse... decided to strt doing my hols assignment... didn't realise tat there was a 2nd page 4 the sci. in the end, i had to do the quiz 1 more time... scored 14/15 ...
i struggled for 59 mins 15 secs 4 the maths and guess wat? i scored 5/15. so many careless mistakes lo...

going to japan on 6 returning on 13... will blog abt my trip when i come back! i will not be able to be wif xin gan on her bdae... sian... bt even if i am not wif her, she still can sense my pressence de... who ask us to be so close... we don hav to c each other everyday bt we still can maintain our relationship... tat's how close we ar and NOTHING will tear us apart... :)

lasted for 1 month and 9 days wif him le... bt, i jus can't bring myself to continue... he's giving me stress instead... xin gan tink tat i shld and it soon... bt i jus can't bring myself to do it... i'm very very tired alrdy... didn't talk or reply his msg since the hols... am at a lost of wat to do... can sb pls help me?

TAGS REPLY!!!
xin gan: must tag me more often ho... and i will call u whenever i can de! i've always called u whenever i can or whenever i need u rite? hahas... ILY!!!

rachael : didn't noe tat my blog is so difficult to find... hahas... i'll try and make it simpler... lol... ILY!!! :) btw tag me more often k?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEI SI BIAN!!!!

2008-04-30T04:18:00.001-07:00

haiz... things ar jus getting worser and worser... everything jus happened like tat... can anybody jus tell me wat the hell is wrong???!!! i am jus feeling soooo lost... jus wat the hell hav i done wrong? u all noe tat i can't afford to lose u all bt, u all still do it... haiz... is there anything i can do to earn ur forgiveness??? i may look like it doesn't affect me... bt, the truth is it affected me more than anything else...

i noe tat i am at fault bt is it too late to apologise for my mistakes??? how i wish everything will jus be back to normal... why izit u only c my bad points and not my good? why izit tat everything i do is wrong in ur eyes? why? why? why?

why must all these things happen when it's near the exams? i jus hope tat everything will go back to normal and i'll be able to concentrate on my exams...

if i'm given one more chance, i will tell u i'm sorry... pls forgive me...

now, the thing only thing i can do is to cherish the ppl ard me and to wait for my lei-si-bian de reply... :(

2008-04-28T01:25:00.000-07:00

finally found the time to blog.... haiz... recently, just so many things are happening... i always tell myself tat the exams are nearing and i need to concentrate... bt with all these problems bothering me, i can't really concentrate...
haiz... and 1 of the problems is still friendship...
i don noe wat did *** tell ****** bt she's jus behaving so wierdly recently...
haiz... i wana go back to the past...

everything started on 24... bt now, i feel like ending it all... i am seriously sick and tired... and jus wana end it all... haiz... bt i noe tat i'll feel guilty... still thinking of wat shld i do...

think tat's all 4 today ba... cos mid year coming... need chiong...
although i have finished revising science...(: feel so proud...

2008-04-11T07:07:00.000-07:00

i tink i really need to try and dedicate more time to my blog.... 3 weeks since i last blog... haiz... bt my life is soooo busy tat i can't even get enough slp... everytime sth big happen, i tell myself i need to post my blog... bt jus don hav the time to do it... i tink i'll dedicate more time once the exmas ar over... i'll try... seriously...

i don noe wat's wrong wif me recently.... my mood swings and i jus hav to fake a smile and laughter... i'm jus trying to use smiles and laughter to cover the broken heart tat's inside me... i jus don hav the mood to jus concentrate on my studies...

REASONS BEING:

1) i jus find tat my mother is really so damn bloody bias... no matter how good i treat her, she always only c the bad side... i jus don noe wat's wrong... it's getting frm bad to worse now... i jus find tat it's very difficult to communicate wif her.... i jus wana leave home and be left alone... sheena and jocelyn will noe wat i'm talking abt...

2) i am still feeling guilty for breaking his heart... and hope tat i could turn back the time...

3) FRIENDSHIP... u